Change.

Hello Blog! It's been awhile. It's been awhile because I don't know what to write, to think, to let out. If my mind has a long term memory loss. It forgot love.

I used to consider myself as a nice person, or at least a person who gets along with everyone that show no remorse or hatred. Now I am angry everyday; not all day everyday, but everyday. It's not towards a particular thing or person, it is just simply me not being able to control my emotions. Littlest things tick me off, and I let it out onto those who are the closest to me, for example, Ellis. His patience and endurance have surprised me recently, because sometimes I CATCH myself saying things to him he does not deserve and vigorously attack him verbally (which sometimes I cannot stop), but he quickly turns them into jokes, or jolts me back into my sanity by telling me straight up that I need to stop.

I have no idea how I became this person that I used to hate. It's time for a change, really. Or maybe I'm just overly-hormonal because I will be getting my monthly magic soon? (Sign, here is my daily denial) Any suggestions? Should I try yoga, running, or keep stuffing my happy belly? Maybe it's time for a time machine. Yeah, that's it. Bring the past back, and that will be my present! (Oh, I'm so witty, ha!)

Sorry for the idleness. I will be back soon. I presume I'll be blathering about just anything that crosses my mind and sparks my interest.. hopefully.

Think Positive.

Back Again.

I remember I used to "xanga" throughout years of high school, and this whole new blogging scene is absolutely surreal. As graduation (and the reality that comes after that) is fast approaching, my brain doesn't have anymore space to contain all my thoughts, so I guess this will help.

What to do after college..

I hated Las Vegas when I first moved here. Getting to college was a gigantic whirlwind which consisted of a series of traumatic, disastrous events. I was lonely, too. Though, now I'm glad I got to experience the non-judgmental society filled with many opportunities of Las Vegas. Seriously, if I told my friends in Vegas that I'm becoming a stripper, they would just nod their heads and support. There's never a judging. Very different from LA, where I grew up, filled with people who are judging you from your head to toe as they pass you by. I do miss the laid-back, beach lifestyle in Cali, where my soul and friends are. I would love to go back. But I will never get a chance to live with my parents with endless support, who are dying to see me in Korea. Maybe I can teach English in Korea for a year, live with my parents so I won't have any regrets in the future, and save money. But I love Ellis, too, my boyfriend of three long years.. I would not want to risk anything in our relationship with the distance. 

It's gonna be very hard deciding which pathway to take after my graduation, because clearly, there is more than one road to take and they all lead me to different lives. It's quite frightening.

On the positive note, Sex and the City is on TV!

Okay, I admit it. Sex and the city is not just a show, it's an obsession! They are just so darn funny, fabulous, and female. What girl hasn't gone through exactly what these women go through weeks after weeks?